If You Put it in the Trash - Leave it There!

This morning's dream was a little disturbing. Then I remembered who God was, "Nothing is too impossible for Him." Phil 1:13 So I'm taking this garbage to him - literally.

This morning's dream...

I was in my back yard digging through my trash can. What I was looking for I don't know.

Then the garbage man comes and picks up the trash can with me in it and puts me in the truck with the rest of the trash. We are the last stop and now we are travelling to the landfill. It takes forever to get there. In the meantime I am thinking, how the heck am I going to get out of this truck, and how am I going to get back home?

We get to the garbage dump and I jump out of the top of the truck before I get dumped in a pile with the rest of the trash.

There are people there celebrating a party for the garbage man's first day of work there. I tell them that I need help getting back to my house. A woman I don't know gives me $20 to get home. I decided to ask those in attendance for the party if they are headed to Mishawaka and if I can get a ride.

When I woke up I immediately thought - what I am trying to get back from my past that I have already thrown away(digging in trash can in my backyard)? What have I already given to God and now I want back? I immediately thought of a relationship that ended a while ago. Despite the ending of it - I've still thought about and perhaps have even dwelled on certain aspects of the relationship during my holiday vacation. This verse came to mind.

2 Corinthians 10:5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Perhaps the dream could be telling me that if I don't leave what I got rid of alone, I"ll end up dwelling on that trash which will eventually take me back to a bigger pile of mess. It could end up in a spiralling downturn of my emotions, thoughts and spiritualness. In this dream trash doesn't mean anything good. All it started with was a peek into the trash can, which turned into getting stuck on a truck and then ended up in the landfill. (Landfills usually represent rejection, evil, filth, etc.)

I believe a thought can be a piece of trash and if you dwell on it - it can take you places you don't want to go. Therefore, I am going to be conscience of this particular person in my thoughts, which means when I do think about this old relationship - I will stand on 2 Corinthians 10:5, which tells us to bring thoughts to Him that are not of Him. I will replace those thoughts with Truth.

I do realize that I am missing out on other representative symbols in the dream. Like the number 20 for instance - According to Ira Milligan's "Understanding the Dreams You Dream," 20 means: holy, tried and approved. I also believe the woman in the dream that I didn't know represents an angel. (I tend to believe that if I don't know the person or can't see their face, that may represent and angel in dreams.) She gave me 20 bucks to get out of the dump. I was tried and approved by God? Perhaps God was testing me in this thought pattern and I passed.

Either way, this dream has brought to light my recent thought patterns concerning this past relationship that has been tossed out. I am praying that God will remind me to take each these thoughts before Him. Eventually becoming completely free from the thoughts all together. I certainly do not want to end up in a garbage dump of emotions.